Learning from mistakes ..

Mistake after mistake
That's all I seem to make
I take one step just to fall
Take another and hit a wall

I close my eyes, for I'm afraid
Another mistake I know I made
Yell at me I know I did it wrong
Try again? Am I that strong?



Can I take another step without fear?
What if another mistake is near?
Falling and tripping along the way
I will get better at this one day

I'll keep stepping no matter how long it takes
One day I will learn from these mistakes
They say practice makes perfection
I want to be like your refection

And hold my head up high
Looking up into the sky
Able to walk without stalling
Not worrying about falling..

One Day You'll Miss My Presence

Upon my pillowcase,
Soaked with salty tears
Is perched a diary,
Filled with forgotten fears

Alongside the terrors
Ring a bell of gold
Inside a marble tower
My story will unfold
Pale stars trail behind
A long forgotton path
Memories are erased
And unto me is wrath

The room echos now
with the haunting voice of me
Calling from the diary
Reaching into night to see
A smudged world
where without my sorrow
Without my love
Life sings bitter and hollow ..

Memories Play a Confusing Role

You left me not too long ago
And yet it seems like forever,
I reminisce the day you left all this time
Because I was right there beside you..

I can't seem to get over the feelings I had,
At that very moment I felt so alone,
It grew cold in the room
That I lost all feelings and sense..

All I had was pure silence and disbelief,
I saw people moving towards you all around me
And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,
I couldn't distinguish my emotions
Because I wasn't sure of them..

I felt soo much anger and sadness, but I couldn't cry
At that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,
And now a year & a half later it all comes back to me
Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..

I've realized how much I missed you
And how much I've needed you here
But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.
I feel so alone right now,
That I just wish you could take me with..

One Day I Will Be All Yours

You didn't live to see my face
And I wonder what you were like
You would've been a few years older
But you didn't get to live a life

I didn't get to meet you
Because you had a disease from birth
I wasn't even born
When you were taken off the earth

I didn't get to learn who you were
Don't know if you were gonna be smart
But even though you are in heaven
You hold a big chunk of my heart

I think about you each day
When I wake up and go to sleep
And though we have no memories
My thoughts about you, I keep

I would've loved to meet you
But I know that that won't happen
I guess I'll just have to wait
Until I meet you in heaven ..

Till Death Do Us Apart

Forever and always, I have loved you that long
What was once just a dream has come true
For, you have lived in my dreams and are now in my heart
I have waited a lifetime for you

Each one of us has a true love, so I am told
One special person who makes us complete
From the moment I met you, I knew it was true
You are the girl of my dreams, my soul mate

Enduring and endless, our love will remain
Our hearts and our souls intertwined
Always together, we will walk hand in hand
I will be yours and you will always be Mine ..

One Day You'll Also Love Me

Why do you hurt me?
Do you like seeing me cry?
How can you just walk away?
When you know I'm dying inside!

How can you drag me,
Through this heartache and all this pain?
You know everything about her,
But do you even know my name?

Do you know how much I love you?
Do you even really care?
How can you let me love you?
Why are you so unfair?

Why won't you let me move on?
Let me be happy once again?
You want me in your life I know,
But I want to be more than just your friend!

Baby, just let me go!
I don't even me a thing.
But I don't want you to let me go!
I love you... Can't you see?

Sometimes I Aches,For too Many Reasons to Acknowledge,

And..

SOmetimes I Cry,
Because the Ache Never Goes Away,
For a Reason,The Way You Left Me ..

Words Cant Describe How I feel

Will I ever be the same again
Will I ever get past all these lies
Will I ever open my eyes
And see that you are nothing
Nothing but lies

Will I ever be able to cry again
Will I ever be able to love again
Will I ever be able to sing again
Will I ever be free again

Free of your lies
Free of your seduction
Free of your lips
Pressed against my unwilling lips...

Do you want to seduce me
Into doing what you may?
Nay, I say, I will not fall
I will not let you take over
While I lose it all

And when I am lieing on the floor
Screaming for air
Losing my mind
And crying out for help
You just stand there smiling

Do you enjoy my pain?

Loving was something I ran from

Loving was something I ran from
Trusting was something that didn't come easy.

Being myself was something I could never do
Faking a smile was something that came naturally.

Hating myself was something I could not hide
Being free was something that seemed so far away.


Wishing was something I learned didn't come true..

Everything was just so fake to me.
I was a stranger to myself.
But that all changed in one quick heartbeat.
When you said you loved me..

When you look into my eyes..

When you look into my eyes..
what do you see?

When you look into my eyes..
what is it that brings you close to me?

..is it the love i have for you?..
or is it just me?..

When you look into my eyes..
what does it make you think of when you are near me?

When you look into my eyes..
What do you want from me?

When you look into my eyes..
why do i always get a feeling that you are always going to be with me?

When i look into your eyes i see myself there..

... when i look into your eyes i feel so free